That's more like it!

And then: now what do I do?

I chatted online on Thursday with a prospect-to-be-named-later, and it went - moderately well. Seemed like a nice enough guy, but I felt like I was pulling information - not much effort from his side. But me being where I am, I thought, well - if I meet him in person and he's still a dud, then it's easy. But be fair - might be better in person.

So we went for coffee today at Cafe Mandolin in Tacoma - a great independent coffeehouse, one of my favorites. And it went really well. Prospect B seems like a very nice guy. He seems grown up. He seems like is old enough to have let go of a lot of the little things that we carry around when we're younger (the absolute "can't haves" that are sooo petty). I think we're in a similar place on how to talk to people and work with people. I really thought I'd be out in under an hour, but we wound up talking for over 2 hours.

At one point in my life, this would have been so easy. I'd be giddy right now. Instead, I feel vaguely anxious.... it can't be this easy. I'll fuck it up! Dating... shit, dating, how do you do that? Understand this is my first first date in... 12 years. Ack! Do I really like him? Don't overthink it! GAAAAHHHHH!

One step, one step at a time. Build a foundation. I have no foundation: the last time I was actively in the dating pool, I was not long out of college and really, a different person. No wonder this is scary. With the online world, you also have none of your usual reference points: no common friends or family or organizations. Flying solo...