Tarot cards

Tarot cards, from my perspective, do not show the future. They show you what you are thinking. They use images to focus your perception, where someone else might use meditation or prayer or what have you.

Knowing I'm feeling a little stressed about this whole online dating thing, I decided to ask my tarot cards: What do I want? The results were definitely illuminating, and in their own way, quite humorous.

Root of the matter: The Emperor. Law-giver, staring ferociously at his petinent. Might well be saying, "What the HELL do you think you're doing?"

Feelings: 6 of discs. Solidity, material reward... myself, my life I've put together.

Thoughts: Death. Card of radical transformation. Oh yeah, that's what I'm doing now, eh? No wonder I'm stressed.

Heart of the Matter: 2 of swords. Shows two men playing a chess game, with their swords each planted in ground near them. Strategic balance, considering how to move forward; and the possibility for a rather different outcome represented by those swords.

What is surfacing: The Star. Since the star in and of itself essentially refers to hidden things that are surfacing, this spot is uniquely opaque. (Imagine being outside under a star lit sky - you can see a little, but not well. More illumination is yet to come.)

Deseires you have: 7 of discs. Discontent with your lot. Shows a guy looking at all he has accomplished, but not satisfied with it. The opposite side of the 6 of discs - yes, I have built a solid and meaningful life, but I'm still looking for something to fulfill it.

Outcome of the matter: 9 of spears. I call this the "defend the homeland" card. Don't let anyone in! Don't let someone get too close! My own stress reflected both at the top and bottom, with cards of transformation and change all around that.

Yeah, well, at least it really did accurately reflect what I'm thinking. And was validating enough that it is almost like someone else confirming it for me - yeah, Anne-Marie, that's normal. Oh, okay, I can relax now. I realize it's all myself doing that, but it is still a good thing.

To be related to the rest of my stories...